I'm still amazed that I can't run. It's gonna be a bit of work for me to finally accept that. I am firmly committed to my decision to stop running in a literal sense, but to give up wanting to run is a little tougher. My mind keeps searching for answers. But not any answer mind you. I want an answer that comes with a solution. That's probably why I have been lukewarm on the post concussion syndrome suggestion that Ky made. I don't actually think its a factor because I still trained and raced well after my crash in 2013, (an excellent marathon just 2 months later) but beyond that, it's a condition that they can't really do anything about. I am starting to find myself grasping at straws, and I think there's a real danger of some hypochondria setting in if I don't stop. It's my heart, it's my lungs, it's my thyroid, it's cancer. it's a brain injury, yada yada yada
I did go see the ENT last week because I was spitting up a lot of blood, and of course we were worrying about you know what. But all is good! He stuck his scope down my nose and found only a post nasal drip problem which causes my constant cough, and lots of dried irritated skin which causes the bleeding. Same old for me. Just gotta keep it moisturized as well as possible. The best way for that is to never sleep for more than 30 minutes at a time :(
For now at least I gotta just accept things the way they are and try to solidify my life around that. There are so many wonderful things to spend my time on, and I'm pretty sure my answer lies in making those things a priority, and let my exercise become a "normal" hobby.
One issue I will have no choice but to deal with however is my eating. Like so many others eating becomes a stress reliever, and I could always get away with it when I was running enough. That's why it's gonna be tough to deal with now. Less running means less calories burned and more stress unrelieved. I am determined that Elly is gonna help me solve this problem, so consider yourself on alert sister.
And so, it was a long walk. I thought maybe I would stretch it out a bit today, and somehow managed to turn it into a half marathon. Is that normal? I don't know. Anyway, there's probably not too many 60 year old men that can walk that far, and I was also happy with my overall pace of 7:15. That made for a 2 hour 33 minute walk. That's a long walk.
And that's it for today.
"Walking is the best possible exercise. Habituate yourself to walk very far."---Thomas Jefferson
I did go see the ENT last week because I was spitting up a lot of blood, and of course we were worrying about you know what. But all is good! He stuck his scope down my nose and found only a post nasal drip problem which causes my constant cough, and lots of dried irritated skin which causes the bleeding. Same old for me. Just gotta keep it moisturized as well as possible. The best way for that is to never sleep for more than 30 minutes at a time :(
For now at least I gotta just accept things the way they are and try to solidify my life around that. There are so many wonderful things to spend my time on, and I'm pretty sure my answer lies in making those things a priority, and let my exercise become a "normal" hobby.
One issue I will have no choice but to deal with however is my eating. Like so many others eating becomes a stress reliever, and I could always get away with it when I was running enough. That's why it's gonna be tough to deal with now. Less running means less calories burned and more stress unrelieved. I am determined that Elly is gonna help me solve this problem, so consider yourself on alert sister.
And so, it was a long walk. I thought maybe I would stretch it out a bit today, and somehow managed to turn it into a half marathon. Is that normal? I don't know. Anyway, there's probably not too many 60 year old men that can walk that far, and I was also happy with my overall pace of 7:15. That made for a 2 hour 33 minute walk. That's a long walk.
And that's it for today.
"Walking is the best possible exercise. Habituate yourself to walk very far."---Thomas Jefferson
Why don't you start walking with a purpose? When you need something at the store?? If you think I have the eating thing solved, you better walk back to the psychiatrist. However, what I am willing and able to help with is stubbornness...tenacity, persistence...unwillingness to give up! Call me
ReplyDeleteElly is a great role model. Just listen when she tells you something! Long walk for sure! I love where your head is now.
ReplyDeleteLove, gail