"Feedback"

Thanks so much for all the kind and supportive words.  I'm very happy to call my video post a success, because at least 6 people watched it.  I'm definitely gonna do it again, but I promise that it will be shorter next time, and hopefully a bit more scenic.  In case you were wondering like John was, why the camera was always pointed straight ahead, it's because it was strapped to my chest.  That I believe is why the audio was relatively audible, and I'm not so sure it would be so good if I strapped it to my helmet, or to the handlebars. Never the less, I'm gonna experiment with those options prior to my next video effort.

I actually find the experience of recording my thoughts that way very liberating.  Listening to it afterwards I was actually surprised how natural it seemed.  And what's really weird, is that I'm pretty sure I couldn't do the same thing sitting in my living room.  I suppose it's just another indicator of the value of the great outdoors, and of course of exercise.  And beyond that I guess, another proof of the power of the mind/body connection.

But as I started out saying, the very best part was the feedback, although some of it was a bit contradictory.  John said that I needed to keep improving or I would die, Mike said I should stop improving and just live, and Deb just wanted me to live, what ever it took! (thanks Deb).  Elly of course accepts me no matter what, but of course she has to because she's my big sister.

And special thanks to John for his dream input.  After giving his words some thought I am inclined to believe that dreams and their impact on an individual are a very personal thing.  For From my perspective the impact can be significant, and I do not believe it is always something I can simply choose to forget.  To counter John's powerful example of the person who watches their whole family perish and yet goes on to live a complete life, I give you the example of a person (perhaps just in their dreams) who rather than just watch this catastrophe, was the actual cause of it....on purpose!!!  I suggest to you that this dream would not be so easily forgotten.

In my case I tried to get Claudette to understand the horror of my dream, and I failed.  She couldn't get why I didn't get over it.  After all....just a dream right?  I so badly needed someone to understand, such that I finally broke down and blurted the details out to her.  I had to close my eyes to do so.....  Fortunately I live with the only person in the world who I could trust with this, and she got it right away.   She no longer questioned why I didn't just forget it.  I will never reveal this dream to anyone else, but trust me when I tell you that it ranked up there with my hypothetical example above. Like I said initially,  I didn't know it was possible to have such a dream, until I had one.  

The good thing is that I actually have an inkling of an understanding of what it was all about.  Even if I'm way off base it doesn't matter, because it's gonna motivate me to improve in an area I want to.  ....there's that self improvement thing again...

And that's it for today.  I have the weekend off because my eldest son came by to pick up his children for the weekend.  Some of you will know the enormous significance of that.

Maybe I'll go visit Izaiah.

...and this ones for you John...

“The function and duty of a quality human being is the sincere and honest development of one’s potential.”---Bruce Lee

Love

Peter