There's good days and bad days, and days where you're just kinda treading water. Because I'm a bit tired I decided to have a rest day, but that comes with the usual consequence.....increased anxiety. It's a pretty vicious circle. I should have at least gone for a walk, and perhaps I learned that again today.
I know it's gonna be a hard journey, this resolve to deal with my worries. But resolved I am! At the end lies the holy grail! Peace!
I did get started on a little project I'm doing for some dear friends, and I spent a little time working on my building permit for the shed replacement. so it wasn't a completely wasted day.
As I was working on the project I was pretty well at peace, but then sitting down to the building permit I realized that I was getting tense. That surprised me. I think I have to work at getting more aware of what activities or situations actually trigger the anxiety, and then try my best to curb, or at least modify particular things. If I'm not aware, there could be a bunch of shit constantly brewing bad things in the background....hmmmm... And when it's something I can't avoid, the very best thing is to get it over and done with asap. I intend on submitting the permit application on monday!
And tonite Colby still has hockey, one of 4 games in 5 days.! As much as his team drives me crazy with their total lack of 'team' play, I just love watching my grandson. I'm not usually one to live vicariously, and Colby is not gonna make the NHL, but it's still about a hundred times better than watching hockey on TV. Even though I can no longer seem to put enough clothes on to stay warm in a hockey rink!
"Do not spend so much time treading water and trying to keep your head above the waves that you forget, truly forget, how much you have always loved to swim."---Anon
Love
Peter
I know it's gonna be a hard journey, this resolve to deal with my worries. But resolved I am! At the end lies the holy grail! Peace!
I did get started on a little project I'm doing for some dear friends, and I spent a little time working on my building permit for the shed replacement. so it wasn't a completely wasted day.
As I was working on the project I was pretty well at peace, but then sitting down to the building permit I realized that I was getting tense. That surprised me. I think I have to work at getting more aware of what activities or situations actually trigger the anxiety, and then try my best to curb, or at least modify particular things. If I'm not aware, there could be a bunch of shit constantly brewing bad things in the background....hmmmm... And when it's something I can't avoid, the very best thing is to get it over and done with asap. I intend on submitting the permit application on monday!
And tonite Colby still has hockey, one of 4 games in 5 days.! As much as his team drives me crazy with their total lack of 'team' play, I just love watching my grandson. I'm not usually one to live vicariously, and Colby is not gonna make the NHL, but it's still about a hundred times better than watching hockey on TV. Even though I can no longer seem to put enough clothes on to stay warm in a hockey rink!
"Do not spend so much time treading water and trying to keep your head above the waves that you forget, truly forget, how much you have always loved to swim."---Anon
Love
Peter
Love this post. So much insight! Keep on keeping on!
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