"On Death & Taxes"

According to the saying, the only two things in this world that are certain.  And while I get the humour in the expression, the two are not really in the same category.  For instance, the one caused me to miss just one post, where as the other one would have ended the blog forever.

Yes, that's my excuse for not writing anything last night.  After doing the family taxes in their entirety, and then repeating the whole process after I somehow closed the program and deleted everything, I was a bit bagged.  For many reasons we had about 3 times as much data to enter as ever before, and I was just too tired to talk with you. 

And while I immediately felt grateful for tax software, after some thought I realized how dumb that was.  If I had done it all on paper, it would not have disappeared into the ethernet with one errant click!

The other big difference between death and taxes, is of course the fact that you can cheat on the latter.        There's even a very good chance that you won't get caught, but it still won't help you to live any longer.  And just for the record, I never cheat.  If there's any ambiguity in the rules however I live by the philosophy that it's better to beg forgiveness, than to ask permission and get told no.  :)

And while my episode with the computer got me thinking about the taxes part of the expression, it was my recent reading that has me thinking about death.  Not for the first time of course.  After all, I got only 20 years left!  But I had a new thought.  Let me see if I can express it.

If I arrive at that spot where I am completely and honestly at peace with myself and my place in this world, then I will no longer have any fear of death. That being the case, shouldn't it motivate me to hurry up and get there?  i know that in a way that may seem contradictory, because if you were totally happy would you not want to live forever?....but....I honestly don't think so, at least not for me.  I think that state of total peace would transcend life.  Actually I'm sure of it!

And that's it.  Big coming out day tomorrow, where I try to run 10 kms.  I'm cautiously optimistic.   Roo and Ky are gonna join me, and do the 5K.  I promise a few pictures 

And a special thanks today to the other Ky in my life, for the bonus unexpected hug!   Beauty!!

"Dying is just like living.  It has it's own way, and you can't control it.  People think, I want to be conscious when I die. That's hopeless.  Even wanting to be conscious ten minutes from now is hopeless.  You can only be conscious now.  Everything you want, is here in this moment."---Byron Katie

Love

Peter