"The guy says he's gonna start blogging again and he lasts two days"
Wrong! I won't post every day but for a while at least I will be fairly regular.
When I have fallen out of the habit in the past it usually coincided with a darker period in my world. Or? It occurred to me that perhaps it wasn't just coincidence.
I think it's a little like exercise. It's easy to slack off for a couple of days cause your sore or tired, and next thing you know you have stopped altogether. To follow up on my analogy, it would be ludicrous to say that my weight gain and loss of fitness was coincidental with my cessation of exercise.
So maybe I need to blog just to stay mentally healthy??
And surely I could take some learning from myself. I truly believe that regular physical exercise will be a part of my life for as long as I live. Despite the frustration with the loss of my endurance I still do something almost every day, and every day I am grateful for it. I never resent it, and strange as it may seem I'm looking forward to winter exercise.
I have however learned to take it a bit easier, to be a little kinder to myself. And as such I'll try to do the same with my mental exercise, in the hopes of building better long term habits.
And to give you some sense of where I am right now I admit to pretty severe morning depression, coupled with tons of anxiety on and off. I suspect it has a lot to do with losing my Ironman addiction which has probably just been a mask. I'm sure it's a good thing that I can't hide behind that any more. I am also starting to understand the extreme level of my control issues....incredible how stressed I get when I can't be in charge!!!
And on the physical front I'm fairly content with the little groove I've fallen into. I often jog 5 kms now (3 out of the last 4 days), and I intersperse that with bike rides anywhere from 30-50 kms. I just cleaned my time trial bike and put it away, and will now stick with my mountain bike through the winter. That could mean some video blogs in the near future :) Also I think maybe I'm gonna just avoid the pool for a while longer since it's not my favorite pastime anyway.
Also on the physical front I'm pleased to say that for the moment at least I'm drug free. I made a decision a month ago to stop taking the artificial thyroid stuff. I know that the drug companies, the medical testing labs, and the doctors all disagree with that, but the truth of the matter is that I took it for almost 2 years, and it didn't make a damn bit of difference other than in the blood tests! I don't regret the decision.
And that's it for today.
"When you relinquish the desire to control your future, you can have more happiness."---Nicole Kidman
Love
Peter
Wrong! I won't post every day but for a while at least I will be fairly regular.
When I have fallen out of the habit in the past it usually coincided with a darker period in my world. Or? It occurred to me that perhaps it wasn't just coincidence.
I think it's a little like exercise. It's easy to slack off for a couple of days cause your sore or tired, and next thing you know you have stopped altogether. To follow up on my analogy, it would be ludicrous to say that my weight gain and loss of fitness was coincidental with my cessation of exercise.
So maybe I need to blog just to stay mentally healthy??
And surely I could take some learning from myself. I truly believe that regular physical exercise will be a part of my life for as long as I live. Despite the frustration with the loss of my endurance I still do something almost every day, and every day I am grateful for it. I never resent it, and strange as it may seem I'm looking forward to winter exercise.
I have however learned to take it a bit easier, to be a little kinder to myself. And as such I'll try to do the same with my mental exercise, in the hopes of building better long term habits.
And to give you some sense of where I am right now I admit to pretty severe morning depression, coupled with tons of anxiety on and off. I suspect it has a lot to do with losing my Ironman addiction which has probably just been a mask. I'm sure it's a good thing that I can't hide behind that any more. I am also starting to understand the extreme level of my control issues....incredible how stressed I get when I can't be in charge!!!
And on the physical front I'm fairly content with the little groove I've fallen into. I often jog 5 kms now (3 out of the last 4 days), and I intersperse that with bike rides anywhere from 30-50 kms. I just cleaned my time trial bike and put it away, and will now stick with my mountain bike through the winter. That could mean some video blogs in the near future :) Also I think maybe I'm gonna just avoid the pool for a while longer since it's not my favorite pastime anyway.
Also on the physical front I'm pleased to say that for the moment at least I'm drug free. I made a decision a month ago to stop taking the artificial thyroid stuff. I know that the drug companies, the medical testing labs, and the doctors all disagree with that, but the truth of the matter is that I took it for almost 2 years, and it didn't make a damn bit of difference other than in the blood tests! I don't regret the decision.
And that's it for today.
"When you relinquish the desire to control your future, you can have more happiness."---Nicole Kidman
Love
Peter
Whatever you post about, I'm just happy to hear about your day/life/etc! Glad you'll be posting on a fairly regular basis. :) Love you!
ReplyDeleteMichael
Me too, what Michael said!
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